Reeeee.....Jected!

I applied to College. I waited patiently for an acceptence letter. I checked the online servie for confirmation regularly. Nothing.

I emailed the college to see if there was a delay due to a strike. There was no delay. All letters of acceptence were posted on March 31. So that means I'm not going to school.

It hurts. I am so tired and stressed out form being rejected. I can understand why people commit suicide. It's such an easy road to go down. It certainly seems as if evrything in life is doing it's damnest to push me that way.

My mother keeps telling me that "one door closes, another opens" . But right now I feel like there are no other doors.

With luck (HA! this proves I don't have any) I should be back to "normal" in a day or two.

Wish I had the cash to go play paintball and vent my frustrations by shooting at people....

Ouch part 2. OR The Hazards of Easter

So 10 days ago I had a tooth ripped out of my face becasue it broke. I was ok with that.

Yesterday was Easter and we got some chocolate.

This morning I'm enjoying a bit of it before I head off to the dentist to begin my cleaning. I'm letting the chocolate melt a bit before it chew enjoying the creamy texture. I start to chew when I feel a crunch.

At first I thought "neat a bit of un mixed cocoa or a random nut." Then I realized the nut wasn't chew able.

Turns out another tooth broke. I just called the dentist to let them know that I may not be getting a cleaning done today.

I've been expecting this to happen for the last 10 years. My dentist in Calgary warned my some of my teeth were more filling than tooth and they would eventually break. I ws hoping it wouldn't happen untill I had full dental coverage again or I could afford to cap my teeth. All I can do now is hope that I can get through school, get a job and coverage before any more break.

With luck this one can be saved instead of pulled.

Let's add to the suffering now. Carrie's mom and dad are coming for a visit. the'll be here untill Thursday. It's not that I don't like them, but since our bedroom is still in the dinig room we won't be able to have sex for a while.
Wel, you know what hey say: Things happen in threes.... LOL

OUCH!

Went back to the dentist last night. They removed the temporary filling that was put on last week. After a bit of grinding he gave me some options.

1- Put a couple of pins into the tooth and rebuild it. No garantee as to how long it would last. Becasue of it being a molar and how the break was normal chewing could shear the pins and I'd be back in the chair.

2- Do a root canal and install a post. A post is thicker and stronger than the pins. Root canal would need to be done to make room for the post. My coverage would allow the root canal, but no the post. Since I had no money to cover the post it wasn't an option.

3-Pull the fucker out of my face. Cheap, covered and only one visit. So that was what I went with.

At this point I'd had 2 needles just to remove the temp filling. I got 3 more to go with them, 2 in the roof of the mouth. OUCH!!! He waited a couple of minutes and stared to pull. It felt like he was pulling the upper jaw right out of my head. No pain but lots of pressue. After five minutes or so he stopped. He siad it was too stubborn and he was going to cut the tooth into 3 pieces. Five more minutes of drilling followed by 10 minutes of pulling and I was done. Install one disovable stitch sit me up and kick me out. DONE!

I have a mild headache, minor swelling and the belleding stopped sometime last night while I was sleeping. I would like to eat but I'm a bit ill feeling from swallowing all that blood. I'm not allowed to eat or drink anything hot and I hate piss warm coffee.... Oh well, what can you do?

har har har! 


Here we are. April 4, 2006. A bit disapointing weather wise seeing as on Friday I was able to spend the day in shorts and a t-shirt. Saturday wasn't too bad. Sunday was cold, Monday added rain and today is the same. Sigh.

I'm still waiting to hear back from St. Lawrence College about my application. Acceptence letters were supposed ro go out on friday. Even thought the stike is over I doubt they'll be out on time. So I have to worry and wait.

Last Sunday I was eating a roast beef sandwich at lunch. Broke a molar. Good thing I had a dentist appointment on that Monday. Got a temp filling put in and go in this Thursday to get the real one done.

We've had a couple of problems on the paintball forum the last couple of days. Seems some of the memebrs feel that the new mods are a tad over zealous in handing out warnings. One member (signed up in June '05 and has under 200 posts) has gone so far as to sell off all of his Special Ops Paintball gear and quite the foum. All becasue he felt he was above the rules. Stupid is as stupid does. He's also vowed to go on a Quixote quest to thwart the tyrany of the forum.

I did something on the forum I've never done before. I read a members tea leaves. HERE is the full thread. My nmae on there is Puzuma (Duh)and the target for the read is JKLNHYD. aside from couple of comments on the forum we've never spoken. I drank the tea while focusing on his photo he uplaoded in his profile and posted my results. He's copied them and is adding his comments as things go by. I've already given him the willies. I hope it turns out to be accurate. I may have a new online business.